Published by Harlequin Teen on January 28th 2014
Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary, Romance, Realistic
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Does life go on when your heart is broken?
Since her mother's sudden death, Emma has existed in a fog of grief, unable to let go, unable to move forward—because her mother is, in a way, still there. She's being kept alive on machines for the sake of the baby growing inside her.
Estranged from her stepfather and letting go of things that no longer seem important—grades, crushes, college plans—Emma has only her best friend to remind her to breathe. Until she meets a boy with a bad reputation who sparks something in her—Caleb Harrison, whose anger and loss might just match Emma's own. Feeling her own heart beat again wakes Emma from the grief that has grayed her existence. Is there hope for life after death—and maybe, for love?
I love him for being here with me. I love him for not telling me that everything will be all right. I love him because he knows what life is like, what it can do, and is always honest about it.
It’s like I’m living inside a mirror. I see things, I do things, but they are just surfaces and nothing more.
When someone you love…when they die, you want it undone. You’d do anything to have them back, and it’s easy to believe that if only this had happened or that had happened, everything would be fine. And that’s what makes you angry. What makes you hate. You don’t want to believe that sometimes bad things happen just because they do.
I see what grief does, how it strips you bare, shows you all the things you don’t want to know. That loss doesn’t end, that there isn’t a moment where you are done, when you can neatly put it away and move on.
I always thought of grief as a blow that took everything out of you. And it is like that. But it stays, past that first hard hit. It stays and blows its breath into you. It’s always there, reminding you of what you’ve lost. What’s gone.
This book. Oh my gosh, guys. This book is heart-achingly beautiful. It’s sad. It’s depressing. It’s tough. It’s beautiful. It’s hopeful.
This book gives you all the feels you can feel. From sadness to grief to happiness to thought provoking to family to friends. This book has it. When first starting this book we meet Emma who is mourning her mother’s death. Only she can’t really mourn her because she sees her everyday. Her mother is brain dead. She’s only surviving because she’s living off of machines, but she’s gone. This kills Emma. She hates that her mother is trapped and Emma’s stepfather, Dan, is only trying to save his baby.
The emotion that this book holds is remarkable. It was heart wrenching to watch Emma belittle Dan. And it was heartbreaking to see them so distant. And it was beautiful when they finally talked. I loved what Olivia (Emma’s best friend) brought to the table. And I absolutely adored Caleb. And I loved that he just understood. I’m really happy that Emma had Caleb. I loved reading them together.
I get it. I get both sides. Personally, if I was in Emma’s mom’s position I would want my husband doing anything he could to save our baby. If there was no saving me, at least the baby could possibly be saved. But then I get Emma too. I understand why she’s so angry with Dan. I understand why she hates it. If I had to see my mother daily and know there was no saving her, I’d probably act the same way. I’d be devastated. I probably wouldn’t be able to overcome anything because I wouldn’t be able to actually mourn her.
So, I get it. It’s like a catch-22. You’re damned if you do and you’re damned if you don’t. But Elizabeth Scott does a marvellous job at telling Emma’s story. It’s superb, really. It’s breathtakingly beautiful. This was my first Elizabeth Scott novel and from this book, it definitely will not be my last. If you’re interested in a contemporary that deals with tough issues. Definitely give this one a try. It’ll make you cry, but it’ll make you hopeful as well.